Relationships: Letting Go

When I decided to start my own blog I thought I’d be focusing my writing on some of the things I am most passionate about. Fashion. Film. Music. Photography. That sort of thing. Fun topics that make me happy.

I could write about upcoming fall fashions.

The premiere of Eclipse at the end of this month. (Team Edward!)

Eminem's new CD.

I could post a photo of a beautiful daylilly.

Instead my first blog post had to do with breaking up.

A break-up wasn’t something I had envisioned in my immediate future. Actually, I hadn’t envisioned it in my future at all.

Maybe that makes me a fool.

I loved him. I still do love him. It wasn’t a “bad break-up” so to speak. No one cheated. No one lied. No one intentionally hurt anyone. But it happened. And it’s all I can think about right now. It’s all I can focus on.

The days are still passing. I still go to work each day. I still do what I need to do. But I can’t stop thinking that this was a mistake.

Every bone in my body is telling me that this is a mistake.

That this is wrong. That our relationship deserves a second chance.

I know there are no guarantees in life. But I also know how I felt and do feel.

I am having an impossible time letting go.

I don’t know how, and I feel LOST because of it.